A strong man makes me feel weak, so I go home and shove around my wife, what a big man that makes me. ![]() Seeing her falling, even before she hit the floor, he felt such a shame go through him, even worse than when her father threw him in the snow. He didn't care about her working alongside him in the store. He didn't care about sweet nights and gentle mornings. She was pretty enough, for a frontier woman, but he didn't care about pretty right now. It was the death of his plans he was facing, and his wife just had too much of that Miller family look about her. I know what you 'was just.' Poor little Armor, you just pat him like a little boy and he'll feel better. When he said "yell," he knocked her back so far she stumbled down on the floor. When he said "love," he took her by the shoulders and gave her such a shake her hair broke right out of the bun she'd made of it, and fluttered around her head. When he said "preach," he shoved her harder, and she stumbled back. "Evil's in you so deep that I can't pray it out of you, and I can't preach it out of you, and I can't love it out of you, and I can't yell it out of you" When he said "pray," he shoved her a little, just to make his point. After years of being married, she still put her faith in witchery, just like her kin. ![]() That him having no hidden power, there wasn't a thing he could do to help anybody. ![]() Maybe she didn't mean to sound so contemptuous. "I went into his room a man of God, and came out as a doubter." Certainties that had sustained him most of his life were suddenly split through by the questions of an ignorant boy. "How can he be on top of something that ain't got no top?" Even though Thrower had rejected the question as the result of ignorance and evil, the question had nevertheless pierced his heart and penetrated to the core of his belief. It was when he stood in Alvin's room, asking the boy to confess his faith, and the boy scoffed at the mysteries of God. Only then, with his eyes sore from crying, his voice feeble and hoarse, did he realize the moment when his faith was undermined.
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